Sunday, March 18, 2012

Hiatus

Dear blog readers,
I have determined that, between my insane work schedule this week, trying to spend my last precious moments with my sister, and using up all my computer battery to edit papers in the car, I will not be able to blog for the next few days. See you in a week!
This is how I feel after working for six hours.
Love,
the Mandolin

Friday, March 16, 2012

Ramblin' Road Trip, Day Ten: Some Humdrum Facts About What I Have Been Doing in San Diego

Keeping a blog on the road is one of my biggest challenges. I used to have the same problem with my diary: when a particularly boring part of my life trickled by, I journalled for an hour or more every day, recording my thoughts on dinner and essay writing and the Crocodile Hunter. But when something exciting happened, when a bunch of friends came to visit from out of town, or when we went on vacation, I couldn’t keep up. It’s the same now, and will always be the same. Thoreau observed, “It is shameful for a man to sit down to write if he has not first stood up to live.” The problem is, when a man is busy living, he doesn’t have time to write!
Right now, Zach and I are in San Diego, crashing at my sister’s new place. There are few things more disorienting that visiting your baby sister in her house (well, techically just a bedroom/bathroom in a house, but still). Thus far, I’ve focused on spending time with her and getting work done— neither very newsworthy. Today I edited a boatload of papers, stress-ate half a Little Caesar’s pizza, edited another gaggle of stories, then went grocery shopping with Zach and met Mary at the bus stop on her way back from work. Zach cooked us a delicious Mexican meal. We had strawberries and shortcake for dessert. We all cleaned up the dishes. I feel like I’m going to explode with food.
Another day, another night feeling ready to crash into deep sleep. I consider this day seized.

Fajitas have varying effects on those who consume them.
~~~

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Ramblin' Road Trip, Day Seven: I Dreamed a Dream

All my life, I had a dream. A dream of dressing up like I had never dressed up before. A dream of someday fulfilling all my historical enthusiasm with my love of the visual arts. A dream of using sentence fragments when describing such an experience.
Today, Grandma Kathy made all my dreams come true… well, at least this one.

Yes, she took us to Old Town Sacramento, where we clopped along the boardwalks beneath the balconies of historic buildings until we ended up in McGee’s Old Time Photos. Zach and I picked outfits, the cameras rolled, and I had more fun than is reasonable for such an experience. I giggled in delight all the car ride home. 
The only problem is, how will I find a new fantasy to replace this one? Ah, the perils of the road. You never know when a lifelong dream will come whisk you off your feet.
...Believe me, it's happened before.


~~~

Monday, March 12, 2012

Ramblin' Road Trip, Day Six: Taboo

I hate games. Actually, I just say I hate them because I hate losing. Perhaps growing up in a family with two excellent strategists and athletes (aka my brothers) as opponents bred this into me. Tonight we sat down with Grandma Kathy and Grandpa Ray for a nice light game of Taboo, a word-guessing game where you are not allowed to say certain words in trying to get your teammate to shout the answer. We played three rounds, each time with a different teammate. I was ready to strangle Zach by the end just because he tied me in number of wins, but I was reduced to hysterics when Kathy guessed “spider corn” instead of “cobwebs.” Forget basketball or soccer— board games burn more calories in pure stress.
Was it a fun night? Yes, yes it was. Because no matter how many times I rail to the heavens about my hatred for these infernal pastimes, I always return to them.

~~~

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Ramblin' Road Trip, Day Four: Long and Winding Road

When I saw the sign that read, “Narrow Winding Road, Next 22 Miles,” I wondered if our decision to take Highway 1 down the coast was a bad one. We had agreed upon it, since we thought it would be scenic and since Zach was willing to drive it. Imagine, seeing the white-foaming waves crash upon the picturesque California coast! View in your mind the stunning panorama of wild sunlight upon the glistening ocean! The surf, the sand, the solitude! What could be better?
“I’m carsick,” Zach said as the topsy-turvy road nearly sent us spinning off into the sea. “Do we have any more water?”
I shook the near-empty bottle. “No.” There was nowhere to fill up, just miles upon miles of road snaking through the admittedly pretty scenery along the coast— well, it would have been prettier except for the mist that had settled over the ocean. The entire landscape to our right was a blank sheet of gray. 
I put on a fake grin. “Having fun yet?”
“I would give anything to be on Interstate 5 right now.”
I sank further into my seat and began munching on chocolate-covered pretzels. We were both thinking about the turn-off we had passed about ten minutes ago, a turn-off that promised to lead us back to the comfort of Highway 101.
“But it’s scenic,” I mumbled.
Zach didn’t reply audibly as we swooped around another sharp curve.
“Do you want to turn around?” I asked.
He paused for several long seconds, looking distant and seasick. “Yes.”
We pulled a U-turn and suffered through another 57 miles of rolling hills that twisted and turned with rollercoaster enthusiasm. At last, 128 spilled us out on Highway 101. Zach returned to cruise control. We listened to Simon and Garfunkel. The scenery on 101 was pretty boring, but neither of us minded at all.

~~~

Friday, March 9, 2012

Ramblin' Road Trip, Days Two and Three: Ocean and Redwoods


Yesterday, I stood on the glittering sand of Bandon, Oregon, and gazed out at the silvery-blue ocean as the wind slashed through my hair. Powder-fine sand whisked over the beach like mist as massive boulders rose from the high tide. The sun shone fiercely overhead as Zach and I hiked up and down the coast, pausing by a cluster of boulders to eat the sandwiches we had packed.

Today, I stood on a damp trail in the middle of the Prairie Creek Redwoods State Park, and stared at a milennium-old redwood towering over my head. I breathed in the wet stillness in the air, feeling that I had been turned into a mouse, gazing up at the multi-trunked tree at least twenty feet in diameter. The grooves in the bark ran up to the crown: fluting on a massive natural column. Zach and I continued our twelve-mile hike, winding our way between the mammoth trees, to the open deciduous forest by the seaside, then back into the redwoods. Darkness seeped into the forest, turning everything to green and gray. My breath quickened in my lungs.
Tonight, I ate toast and honey and sat by the fireside at our couchsurfing host’s house. Two other surfers, Monica and Martina from Switzerland, shared a meal, as they have been doing for the past three years as they’ve biked from the southern tip of Argentina. Exhaustion tugged at my legs. I retreated to my room and sank onto the bed. Warmth wrapped me up. Sleep beckoned. But first, I had to post this blog…
~~~

Ramblin' Road Trip, Day One: Roseburg

Zach and I said our final goodbye around 10:15 on March 7th, filled up the tank of our “brand-new used car,” and hit the road. Now was the beginning of our 3,000-mile road trip to San Diego and over to St. Louis, and it still didn’t seem real.
The trip from Portland to Roseburg takes a fairly unremarkable path through wide-open fields dotted with sheep. Zach and I listened to Coldplay, Pomplamoose, Nickel Creek and Led Zeppelin, in between pointing out the hawks perched in trees by the roadside and the dozens of adorable lambs we saw grazing or cuddling in the pastures.
Our hosts for the first night were the parents of our mutual friend Tyler— we stayed with Bob and Laura the last time we were in Roseburg, and they welcomed us again with enthusiasm and copious amounts of delicious food.  Zach and I took a hike and relived some memories. I soaked in the Oregon landscape, basking in the sight of blue mountains tipped with the remains of winter snow, and the sun sinking over the hills, transforming them from green to indigo. We got to do some visiting with the family and I got to catch up on my blogs a bit. That night, we took a few minutes to stand on the deck outside and look at the stars. I gazed at Orion, my favorite constellation, and felt incredibly blessed to have returned here, seven months later, with a new best friend.
It was a short day, a good start. I couldn’t believe we were actually on the road.
~~~

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Multnomah Falls and the Reason I Gladly Admit a Sunny Day Would Have Been Inferior

“Multnomah Falls is pretty, but it’s just too mainstream.” I’ve heard some variation of this statement from several people. Indeed, this 620-foot waterfall is the most famous one in Oregon, and the well-paved paths leading to the top of this natural wonder make it a reachable climb for anyone who can hike two miles. 
The falls have a special meaning to me: I visited them last summer, and Zach was the only one of the group who wanted to hike all the way to the top. Now, the two of us were determined to try the hike again, this time with a 5.6 loop thrown in.
The day dawned dismally. Clouds crowded the sky, casting a gray shadow over everything. I was grumpy because the previous day had been sunny and warm, which I thought would be better hiking weather. Nevertheless, Zach and I packed up a water bottle, some trail mix, and waterproof gear and headed out into the misty afternoon. 
Soon it was raining, and it rained for our entire drive from Portland to Multnomah Falls. We headed straight toward the hike, took some obligatory photos by the base of the falls, then started up the set of 11 switchbacks that lead to the top of the mountain, where you can observe the opening of the falls from behind the safety of walls.
At first, it was raining. Then it began sleeting. Pellets of ice smacked against my jacket, and within a few minutes, my legs were drenched in icy rain. My socks were taking in water at an alarming rate. The rain pounded harder. My legs burned. I already felt exhausted, too exhausted to keep climbing, too exhausted to raise my head. The trail leveled out, dipped down a bit, and we trudged over soaked stone and tiptoed between puddles to reach the platform where Multnomah Falls plunges over the side of the cliff. In the summer it was a babbling brook that happened to tumble off a cliff— in winter it was a raging torrent, fueled by snow-melt and rainfall. Standing soaked to the knees in freezing rain, flinching as the ice pelted down, Zach and I looked at each other. “Do you want to go back?” he asked. I saw the hopeful look in his eyes, and I knew exactly what he wanted to do.
“Let’s go on,” I said. 
He smiled. I giggled. Then, splashing straight through the ochre-colored puddles, we dashed toward the opening of the Wakheena Falls trail. 
Underneath the shelter of Douglas firs, the rain didn’t beat as hard, although it was still sleeting with vigor. Zach and I clambered over the rocky trail, breathing in the beauty. I have a hard time putting the Oregon forest into words: it's raggedy, tangled, soaked in moss, rising into crests and columns and tumbling into white-gushing streams and waterfalls. The landscape stunned me with the sheer amount of green: stands of fir trees towering over us, ferns blanketing the ground, moss and lichen draped over the deciduous trees. We followed the brook upstream for a while, then the trail climbed away from it. Zach grabbed my arm and pointed toward the top of the treeline. I looked up, and saw something that made me gasp in wonder. It was snowing! 
Upward we climbed, watching the sleet freeze away into swirling white flurries. The snow melted on contact, so the woods around us were still completely green, a panorama of verdant springtime even as a cheerful blizzard blasted its way through.
We took a side trail that would lead us to an elevation of 2400 feet. In the gaps between trees, we saw the Columbia River far beneath us, glimmering pale silver through the mist that held close on every side. Still we climbed more, and then we saw a place where the muddy trail abruptly changed to snow. The firs were dusted in it, gleaming like a fairy-tale land. Zach and I dashed forward. Soon we left the world of springtime behind: we were immersed in winter, a glowing, cool-aired winter where all the world was black and white, draped in snow, shimmering like a dream. We skirted a ridge and the draft carried the drifting snow upward as we caught glimpses of the evergreen hills beneath us. Except for the distant sound of rushing water and the occasional dripping sound of snow, the woods were completely silent. I felt that I had fallen into the middle of Narnia.
Zach and I soon ditched our original wimpy 5.6-mile plan— we diverged onto a narrow trail that Zach thought would lead to a lookout he’d visited before, though we had no idea how far it would take us. The elevation drop was steep, so soon I was bounding down the trail like a deer, Zach running after me and yelping when I forgot to hold the tree branches clear of him. The woods were alive with snow, with the rustlings of birds and the sparkle of ice, with water droplets frozen on the tips of moss, with blankets of white spilling over the carpet of ferns. I felt alive, my face flushed, my legs throbbing, my feet sloshing loudly with frigid water. 
All at once, the snow ended. The trail turned back to mud, lined with red pine needles and green moss. The trees lost their snowy flourish. Zach and I plunged back into the world of a cold, wet spring.
Sure enough, the trail led us to Angels Rest, a huge outcropping of tree-covered rock that juts out from the mountains, giving the determined hiker an almost-360 view of the Columbia River Gorge. Behind us, the rounded tops of the mountains glimmered with snowy trees. To our right, the mountains fell away in verdant color, contrasted with the blue of the river. The mountains across the gorge, in Washington, were crowned with silver pillows of cloud. And to our left, I saw the majesty of Oregon in vivid shades of silver-gray.
The clouds had cleared in one spot to a thin veil, and the sun pierced through it, pouring ethereal beams of light onto the river. The Columbia glowed silver, racing backward toward the horizon like the bastions of a mountain. The breath rushed from my lungs. I stared, I swallowed, and I fell in love. The view on a sunny day would have been beautiful. The view on a cloudy day was a masterpiece of everything that makes Oregon great.
Our hike ended up being well over ten miles, and my legs were sore for three days afterward. It was a perfect day.
~~~


Tuesday, March 6, 2012

The Dream of the 90's…

I’ve been to downtown Portland a couple times since I’ve been here. I can’t find my original description of the city when I came here a year and a half ago— although I remember I used the phrase, “it has the charm and the grunge of a river town.” The thing about a river town is that you can never wash the river-slime out of the city’s armpits. Portland doesn’t try. 
I live in a river town, as most of you know, so I feel free to critique them. St. Charles has a pretty waterfront with a sprawling park with neat pebbly paths and wooden benches. But skirt to either side of the perfect green and you will find scraggly woods dotted with trash and used syringes. You will find rotting buildings with weathered brick. You will find alleys beyond the tourist district that smell of algae and dead fish. So it is with Portland, and St. Louis, and every river-town I’ve ever visited. 
Portland, as I said, tends to embrace this. The sign KEEP PORTLAND WEIRD displays the city’s unofficial slogan, and the locals do their best to obey it. White people destroy their hair to make dreadlocks. Clothes are patchwork. Nobody knows the concept of "natural hair color." Instruments, cigarettes, plaid flannel and strip clubs abound. The homeless people wear stylish clothes. Every person I breeze by, every strange building and coffee shop I pass, drills the mantra into my head: I do not belong here. I may visit, I may enjoy, but I am not part of the city. I am not a cell in the living body that is Portland. I am okay with this, especially since I’m not moving here (at least, for the moment). It’s a pretty cool place, but I won’t miss the city itself.
Oregon, however, is a completely different matter…
~~~

Monday, March 5, 2012

New Old Friends

Those of you who have been following my blog since summer will remember Ayden and Kourtney. These cute newlyweds, skinny, punk-Portland-stylin’, decked out with piercings, are my bandmates (drummer and merch girl, respectively) from Insomniac Folklore. They are currently living in Eastern Oregon, but they decided to make a trip across the mountains to visit before Zach and I headed out. Ayden’s sister Xoey also came over the same day, so we were set for a couple days of drugging up on junk food, video games, and Portland.
Ayden, Kourtney, Ivy, Xoey, Zach
Seeing travel friends again is always a bit disorienting. These are people to whom you once felt extremely close, and although your paths have diverged, there is still a bond from the time you spent together. The little things about them— Kourtney’s laugh, Ayden’s slump, the way they cuddle up next to each other— made me think fondly of tour and the time we spent together there.
The first night, we went grocery shopping at WinCo, then gorged on pizza and chips while watching Zach and Ayden shoot things in Call of Duty: Black Ops. The next day, we hopped the train to downtown Portland and ran around for a while, eating Voodoo donuts, hanging out the Ground Kontrol arcade, and poking around in artsy little shops. It’s hard to believe that I traveled more than half the country with these people, sharing wild laughter and nights at rest stops and living-room-floor beds and trail mix and a dozen different concerts, each one unique. I don’t know if we’ll get the chance to do it again, but I’m happy that it happened. It was good to see them again.
The Voodoo Donut Band
~~~

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Lullaby for the Children on Display at OMSI

This poem is dedicated to the children (or "fetuses") who are preserved at the Oregon Museum of Science and Industry to show the incredible progression of prenatal development. They all died of natural causes. I dearly hope their parents loved them.
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Oh tiny body soaked in plastic,
Sleep
Your eyes that never opened,
Rest
Your fingers— fragile, tendril-like,
with half-formed nails
and handprints waiting,
Close
Now limp inside the rigid shell.
Oh child in plastic,
Rest
But don’t reside in this, your corpse, 
your leaden earthly mask
that callous and respectful eyes peruse
like books upon a shelf. Oh child!
Oh precious child in plastic,
Sleep
And wake once more to newborn light.

~~~

Saturday, March 3, 2012

(West) Beach Day: a Story in Pictures

Did you enjoy my last blog with the (almost) same title? Here is the cloudy version…

Jumping for joy at the Cape Kiwanda! (Photo by Zach)

My attempt at photography was not as spectacular. But Zach's cartwheels were. 

Zach wanted to climb up this hill. Why, you ask? He's a masochist.


The view at the top was worth it, though.



These were not our actual attitudes. Imagine Zach's expression on my face. That's more accurate.


Friday, March 2, 2012

Plans for the Road

As I write this, I’ve been in Oregon for three weeks and two days. I don’t consider myself to be traveling right now, although I occasionally break out the camera in order to feel “touristy.” Mainly, I’m here to be with Zach, meet his multitudinous relatives, and experience his life here in the City of Roses. Some of my best memories so far are not blog-worthy material: they are three-hour conversations about theology, arguments about the nature of creative media, time spent drawing and conversing with his six younger brothers and sisters. 
Looking pensive is essential.
The next few days, I’ll post a few stories and pictures to give you a feel for how my time in Portland has been. However, as of Wednesday, I’m hitting the road again. And this time, Zach is coming with me!
Yes, due to a lot of unforeseen circumstances, he and I now have the use of a ’92 Buick in really good shape, which we will use to drive to San Diego, and then back home to St. Louis. “Excited” doesn’t even begin to convey how I feel about it. To see the West Coast, California, and the Southwest with full use of a car is a dream come true. And I’m proud to announce that one of my best friends in the whole world will be leading the way.
~~~

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Tales from California: The Final Day


My flight was boarding in five minutes, and I didn’t have time to cry.
Just two hours ago, Kathy had dropped me off at the Sacramento airport. Between then and now, I had called home and talked with Mom. My oldest brother Eric had been in the hospital for over a week, due to appendicitis and complications thereof. He had just been told he needed another surgery. Mom sounded exhausted in every way. Although I’m far too accustomed to family members being in dire medical condition while I’m away on a trip, dealing with it has not gotten much easier. But I didn’t have the time or the place for a proper breakdown, so I was sitting on a bench near my gate, reading Jane Eyre intently and trying to bottle up the emotional buildup of two crazy weeks in California. 
Travel is intense. It slips under your skin. It burrows into your heart. Your mind longs for the familiar in an ever-changing landscape, but all you get is wet salty rope mooring boats over black water, and huge strands of kelp tangled on a sandy shore, and new faces trying to sort you out and find you out and bring you out as you flit from city to city, coast to coast. Travel drains. Travel renews. Travel makes the sky seem a different color, and makes home seem a distant dream, a close-up call, a whisper in your ear. A seagull cries, flying high over the mist that’s rolled up over your eyes. Every airport is the same. Time does not pass, but it rushes by on fleet feet and you wonder how you got here and where you’re going and if you will ever want to go home. If you do go home, will you ever want to leave?
My boarding group was called. I put away my book, hoisted my backpack, and shuffled toward the plane. I held up the line to take a photo of a truly Californian sign, pictured at the top of this blog (I explained to the people behind me that I was from Missouri, which is my excuse when I ever do anything ridiculous). I found a window seat near the front of the plane, which has never happened before with my cheap-seat tickets. I began to relax.
The last that I saw of California was a tapestry of wetlands beneath me and a flock of birds, tiny white petals fluttering over the brown landscape. Then the clouds swallowed me up, and my trip to California came to a close. I was on my way to Oregon.
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