Friday, October 28, 2011

NaNoWriMo 2011: Backstory

Today, I looked at my calendar, realized National Novel Writing Month was four days away, and nearly hyperventilated. Where has my head been? Usually I have a solid idea of what I want to write nearly a month in advance: a main character’s name and personality, a general plot, a setting, and a genre. As of this morning, I had the name “Renn” in my head, and that was all.
Jack London once said, “You can’t wait for inspiration; you have to go after it with a club.” So I sat down today and pounded out a few phrases. The next thing I knew, a story sprang to life before my eyes. It’s vague and wild and I have very little idea about the plot, but it took shape more than any of the many ideas I’ve kicked around in my head the past few weeks.
My first discovery is that Renn is a girl, the daughter of an innkeeper (hostel-keeper?) named Marianne. Halley and Bert, a young married couple, showed up soon after in my head, and then my sister insisted that I include someone named Pete who sells hot air balloons. War and possibly allegory will be involved. I have yet to discover the genre, but I believe it might be pseudo-steampunk. 
I am planning to fundraise this year again, but right now I’m so busy I’ve fallen way behind on my schedule. Expect some more blogs starting on Monday. Welcome to NaNoWriMo 2011!
~Lisa Shafter

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: A Conclusion

This project, starting with the day I began writing down quotes and ending with today, has lasted almost two full years. At first, it was just catharsis for a trampled heart. Then I decided to practice my analytical writing and slogged through a few blog entries. The project lay fallow for nearly a year. After dashing off to east coast and west coast and everywhere in between, I picked up the series again, and I’m glad I did. I have grown a lot as a person over the course of this project, and reflecting on Tolkien’s wisdom has been a part of that. I’m sad to leave the daily devotion behind.
In a few days, you’ll be hearing from me about my next blog series: National Novel Writing Month 2011! There will be considerably less wisdom and more mayhem, but it should tide you over until I hit the road again and stop being The Stationary Mandolin. 
Thank you to everyone who has come with me on this journey through Tolkien’s book. I wish you all a thoughtful day and lovely October.
~Lisa Shafter


Friday, October 21, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: I'm Back

But Sam turned to Bywater, and so came back up the Hill, as day was ending once more. And he went on, and there was yellow light, and fire within; and the evening meal was ready, and he was expected. And Rose drew him in, and set him in his chair, and put little Elanor upon his lap.
He drew a deep breath. “Well, I’m back,” he said.

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Photo by Rod Price

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Tears

“Go in peace! I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are evil.”
People in general are uncomfortable with crying. We’ll tolerate it at a tender moment in a movie, in church services (at appropriate places) and at weddings and funerals. But we feel embarrassed to weep in public, and we feel embarrassed when other people do it. The immediate response when anyone starts crying is to “Cheer them up,” as if tears were some awful disease that needed immediate cure.
I cry often and easily, as anyone who knows me could confirm. But I don’t think that’s a bad thing. It signals a tenderness of heart, an openness that allows me to feel joy deeply. I cry just as easily at a moss-covered tree as I do at a dead starling. Mourning is a part of living in a fallen world, but so is rejoicing.
A quote from C.S. Lewis comes to mind. In The Last Battle, the King of Narnia witnesses the end of his world. He is essentially in heaven at this point, yet he says this:
“Sirs,” said Tirian. “The ladies do well to weep. See, I do so myself. I have seen my mother’s death. What world but Narnia have I ever known? It were no virtue, but great discourtesy, if we did not mourn.”
Some people say there will be no tears in Heaven, but Revelation says that our tears will be wiped away, not nonexistent. This is great comfort to me. Something as vulnerable, as deep and as beautiful as weeping must be everlasting.
~Lisa Shafter


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Solid and Whole

“I wish I could go all the way with you to Rivendell, Mr. Frodo, and see Mr. Bilbo,” said Sam. “And yet the only place I really want to be in is here. I am that torn in two.”
“Poor Sam! It will feel like that, I am afraid,” said Frodo. “But you will be healed. You were meant to be solid and whole, and you will be.”
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“But,” said Sam, and tears started in his eyes, “I thought you were going to enjoy the Shire, too, for years and years, after all you have done.”
“So I thought too, once. But I have been too deeply hurt, Sam. I tried to save the Shire, and it has been saved, but not for me. It must often be so, Sam, when things are in danger: some one has to give them up, lose them, so that others may keep them.”
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Today, after thirteen months of surgeries, ER visits, and prolonged uncertainty, my dad came home from the doctor’s and announced, “It’s not cancer.”
The world opened up again. I didn’t realize I had been holding a mental breath for thirteen months. Each day, no matter how good it was, had dragged by in brooding uncertainty, and I had wished that a year would pass and this would all be over. Abruptly, it’s over. There are still complications in his health to deal with, but the surgeries are done and the threat that we had feared never came to light. It is my hope that he is on his way to healing completely in every way.
It seems appropriate that I would be talking about these quotes today. I put them together because I feel that they are related. Here, we see how the journey has affected Sam and Frodo. Sam is on his way to healing, but Frodo realizes that in this life he will never be solid and whole, and he is at peace about it. He is a hobbit living with a terminal illness; his strength has been broken so that others may be strong. It is sad, and it doesn’t seem fair, but it is a reality of life. However, Frodo also understands that there is a Place where full healing is possible.
This section of Lord of the Rings is always intensely bittersweet to me. But today I am glad, immeasurably glad, that even in a broken world, healing is possible.
~Lisa Shafter

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Useless

“I will not have him slain. It is useless to meet revenge with revenge: it will heal nothing.”
This quote, simple and direct, sums up everything I believe about revenge. Both modern and ancient culture have been obsessed with revenge, equating it with honor or necessity. Every human heart (including mine) hungers after “getting even,” feeling that even if it doesn’t right a wrong, it will still bring some sort of satisfaction.
Frodo’s words get to the heart of the issue: it is our duty, our right, and our privilege to heal. This world is scarred and full of enough destructive cycles without our help. This isn’t about justice or personal satisfaction or how you feel at all; it is a stern reminder of our calling to build up rather than tear down. 
Revenge is a never-ending cycle of ripping at wounds. Forgiveness is an act of redemption that frees everyone— especially the one who must forgive— from the bonds of bitterness. “Bless those you persecute you; bless and do not curse.” Forgiveness is one of the most obvious ways we can shine our light for the whole world to see, and it is the one we are most reluctant to embrace. We must soften our hearts, free our minds, and set to work doing what we can for the healing of our world.
~Lisa Shafter



Monday, October 17, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Falling Asleep Again

“Well, here we are, just the four of us that started out together,” said Merry. “We have left all the rest behind, one after another. It seems almost like a dream that has slowly faded.”
“Not to me,” said Frodo. “To me it feels more like falling asleep again.”
On several of my trips (most notably my first solo journey), I have felt like Merry. While washing dishes in my kitchen, it’s hard to imagine that I had ever eaten sweet corn and chicken with a couple of kind Lutheran-Buddhist strangers after hiking around an island off the US/Canadian border in Washington. The memories fade into dreams on the flight home.
However, on a few of my trips— especially my trip to Florida last winter and my tour this summer— going home feels the way Frodo describes it. Travel feels realer than anything I have ever experienced. When I’m at home, it’s too easy to be dragged into routine, in the horror of the ordinary. Travel flips all that on its head, and doing laundry and washing dishes become extraordinary. 
Here’s an excerpt from a letter I wrote my family when I was on tour, which I think sums up the intensity of travel (without any regard to grammar, I might add):
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The past couple weeks have been a crazed blur, a conglomeration of deep emotions and passing thoughts, of earth tones and the reek of alcohol and dark folk music played through rusty-sounding van speakers. Waterfalls and ocean, white-foaming— salty breath, mist tossed into the air like snow that has forgotten to fall to earth. Back alleys, concrete beds in rest stops, dry air on the plains. A trailer in a Portland suburb, eight of us crammed in it eating pasta at one in the morning with white sauce from a can— a bottle of orange-mango juice passed from bandmate to bandmate, and I take a swig even though I’m allergic to mangoes. The past couple of weeks have been putting granola on my PB&J for breakfast and lunch. Passing out on a stranger’s carpet. Taking walks through the Seattle ghetto with a new friend. Curling up in a torn red booth after midnight and wishing more than I have ever wished anything that the guy who turned a snow shovel into a guitar would just stop playing so we can go back home and sleep.
I don’t think I was ever so aware of my youth as I am now. Sometimes it feels so amazing to be young right now that I can barely stand it. I punch Tyler and Zach a lot and throw pillows at them because I’m so happy, and I hug Adrienne and Amanda often and tightly. I skip for joy and sometimes I sing, and sometimes I just sit quietly and soak up the place I’m at and think about how I’ll be thinking about this moment when I’m old. I’m tired a lot, and my neck absolutely kills me some days, but they seem insignificant compared to the wonder of an anemone’s tentacles, or sleeping in a cramped livingroom with all six of my bandmates, or evergreens straight and tall in the Mt. Baker National Forest. 
Late sunlight pours through the van windows. The speakers buzz; there’s no CD in the player. Eastern Washington breezes by, open farmland not unlike Oklahoma. We’re almost to Spokane for another night of music, of glorious uncertainty, and of the quiet magic that I have come to know as touring.
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~Lisa Shafter


Saturday, October 15, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Joy Like Swords

And all the host laughed and wept, and in the midst of their merriment and tears the clear voice of the minstrel rose like silver and gold, and all men were hushed. And he sang to them, now in the Elven-tongue, now in the speech of the West, until their hearts, wounded with sweet words, overflowed, and their joy was like swords, and they passed in thought out to regions where pain and delight flow together and tears are the very wine of blessedness.
The Ring is destroyed, the war is won, and this is Tolkien’s description of Joy. It is triumph, it is glorious pain, and it is an experience that shatters the categories for emotions that humans have constructed. Depression and bitterness can reach great depths, but I firmly believe that Joy is deeper still. Sorrow and anger were not here from the beginning, but in Joy the heavens clapped their hands, and the earth spun into being.
~Lisa Shafter


Friday, October 14, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Light and High Beauty


When I was in the throes of the first few days of my depression in 2010, I couldn’t think of anything but my pain for even a second. The first thing that shook me out of myself was a hummingbird in San Francisco. Its iridescent feathers gleamed green in the sunlight as it perched on a cable a few feet from my head and preened. Caught up in the beauty, I forgot my pain for five full seconds. It seemed like a slow start, but it gave me hope that I would be able to have joy again. 
I snapped the above picture nearby San Francisco Bay, fascinated by the tiny bird’s silhouette. In my trip to California, I saw more hummingbirds than I ever had before in my life.
Light and high beauty are everywhere, silent reminders that there are some things death and pain and horror can’t overshadow. I look at this photo often to help me remember that, even in a dark and evil world, Beauty survives.
~Lisa Shafter

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Nor Bid the Stars Farewell

At last, weary and feeling finally defeated, he sat on a step below of the level of the passage-floor and bowed his head into his hands. It was quiet, horribly quiet. The torch, that was already burning low when he arrived, sputtered and went out; and he felt the darkness cover him like a tide. And then softly, to his own surprise, there at the vain end of his long journey and his grief, moved by what thought in his heart he could not tell, Sam began to sing…

      In western lands beneath the Sun
the flowers may rise in Spring,
the trees may bud, the waters run,
the merry finches sing.
Or there maybe ‘tis cloudless night
and swaying beeches bear
the Elven-stars as jewels white
amid their branching hair.
      Though here at journey’s end I lie
in darkness buried deep,
beyond all towers strong and high,
beyond all mountains steep,
above all shadows rides the Sun
and Stars for ever dwell:
I will not say the Day is done,
nor bid the Stars farewell.
I sat on an armchair in the grand sitting-room of a Victorian mansion-turned-hostel in Sacramento. As I iced my sprained knee, I read a paperback version of The Return of the King. Tomorrow I would head back to Missouri after spending nearly a month in California. I had been traveling solo for a good two weeks, wavering in and out of depression and sadness and fear and bitterness. I felt as lonely as Sam searching for his master, and I knew in my heart that I would never see my Frodo again. 
When I read this passage, I looked around to make sure no one else was in the common room, and then I allowed myself to cry. I felt beauty warming the edges of my cracked and brittle heart. I closed my eyes and spoke the words softly to myself. I will not say the Day is done, nor bid the Stars farewell. Hope at the end of despair. Joy in the midst of grief. These themes echo over and over in Frodo and Sam’s journey through Mordor, and they reached into my heart in a way that nothing else could at that point in my life.
A year and a half later, I curled up on a futon-bed in a rickety trailer in Portland Oregon. Four of my friends, three of them newfound, lounged on the beds and couches around me as one of them handed me a book of Tolkien poetry set to music. I couldn’t sight-read well enough to sing them, but I flipped through the pages until I found that poem. My favorite poem. The poem that has become my anthem of hope. With a full heart I began reading, tasting each word on my tongue. At this joyful point in my life, the poem was still just as beautiful and powerful. It will always be a meaningful passage to me, a reminder that, no matter how dark things get, there is always hope.
~Lisa Shafter


Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: The Fields that We Know

“Other evils there are that may come; for Sauron is himself but a servant or emissary. Yet it is not our part to master all the tides of the world, but to do what is in us for the succour of those years wherein we are set, uprooting the evil in the fields that we know, so that those who live after may have clean earth to till. What weather they shall have is not ours to rule.”
In the past several months, I have become painfully aware of the injustice in the world. Slavery and trafficking are common in every nation in the world. It is both legal and socially acceptable to kill a fully-formed baby. People in other countries are consistently arrested and tortured because of their faith. Poverty and starvation continue to kill millions of people every year. The world’s consumerism is ravaging the planet’s natural resources as landfills continue to grow.
Where is a person to start? Sometimes I look at all the evils of the world and feel despair. This quote echoes what the wise people in my life have been telling me: You can’t mend the evils of the world. You can only affect the scope you have been given, do your best, and trust that the rest will work out.
Defining the scope is where the problem continues. Some people are called to be hobbits, dealing with their neighbors and growing healthy potatoes. Some are called to be Rangers, defending both strangers and friends from threats that show up all over Middle-earth. Most of us are a mix. It’s important to carefully consider where we are at any point in our lives, to discern when we should be fighting black riders and when we should be weeding our gardens.
These words, spoken by Gandalf, echo the wisdom he gave Frodo near the beginning of the first book: All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us. 
~Lisa Shafter


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Herbs

“Master Meriadoc,” said Aragorn, “if you think that I have passed through the mountains and the realm of Gondor with fire and sword to bring herbs to a careless soldier who throws away his gear, you are mistaken. If your pack has not been found, then you must send for the herb-master of this House. And he will tell you that he did not know that the herb you desire had any virtues, but that it is called westmanseed by the vulgar, and galenas by the noble, and other names in other tongues more learned, and after adding a few half-forgotten rhymes he does not understand, he will regretfully inform you that there is none in the House, and he will leave you to reflect on the history of tongues. And so now must I. For I have not slept in such a bed as this, since I rode from Dunharrow, nor eaten since the dark before dawn.”
This speech always makes me fangirl-squee a little bit inside (or out loud, for that matter). It is also one of the most uniquely characterizing moments of Aragorn in the entire story. He has held his peace and his wisdom through battle and thorn and exhaustion and trial, but at last Merry’s request for tobacco sends him over the edge. It’s the closest thing we ever get to a rant from Aragorn, and it is also one of my favorite things he ever says. Lord of the Rings thrives not only for its deep wisdom, but also for its laugh-worthy moments.
~Lisa Shafter

Monday, October 10, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Grief and Wisdom

“He has taken a hurt… But these evils can be amended, so strong and gay a spirit is in him. His grief he will not forget; but it will not darken his heart, it will teach him wisdom.”
Here again Tolkien emphasizes the importance of perspective: the same experience that will break one man will strengthen another. We have no way of knowing how our spirit will hold up under crisis, but we can work to strengthen ourselves for when the time of testing comes. It is always my hope that the grief I experience will teach me wisdom, but that my heart will forever be full of light.
~Lisa Shafter


Saturday, October 8, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Mountains

He sat for a moment half-dreaming, listening to the noise of water, the whisper of dark trees, the crack of stone, and the vast waiting silence that brooded behind all sound. He loved mountains, or so he had loved the thought of them marching on the edge of stories brought from far away; but now he was borne down by the insupportable weight of Middle-earth. He longed to shut out the immensity in a quiet room by a fire.
Merry’s observation of mountains sums up the way I feel about them. I grew up visiting the Smoky Mountains every year, reveling in the ferny slopes, the dense tree canopy, the waterfalls springing from every crack in the moss-covered cliffs. My family always camped in the national park, and my siblings and I splashed around in the nearest stream, our feet numb in the ice water. The hikes we took there are some of the fondest memories of my childhood.
For all the fun, however, the mountains scared me. Living in the Midwest, it was hard to imagine a stretch of undeveloped land so huge that you could get lost in it and never find your way out. One day, my dad swept his hand to encompass an endless blanket of trees below our vantage point, and he warned us, “This isn’t like the forests back home, where you might get lost for a little while. There are millions upon millions of acres out there.” My siblings nodded soberly, but I’m sure I was the only one who had unsettled dreams for years afterwards in which I floated over the rolling wooded mountains as Dad’s voice echoed the words “millions upon millions of acres…” until I awoke in a feverish sweat.
The interplay of sky and ground always fascinated and unnerved me. Heaven and earth keep a respectful distance in the Midwest, but in the Smokies they were always pressing on each other. I’d be surrounded by the chill mist of a cloud one minute, wet sunlight the next. At evening, the mountains tore through the clouds in a clash of fiery colors, and the stars always seemed impossibly near and bright.
One time (fortunately when I was in my early teens, and not young enough to be scarred for life), our family was camping high up in the Smokies when I awoke in the dead of night to a horrible roar of flapping fabric. Rain drove down on the tent’s fly as wind slammed against the thin canvas. White flashes of lightning sparked through the air, trees screamed as the storm ripped into them, and then thunder exploded right over our heads, nearer than the treetops, nearer than I had ever heard thunder before. Fear, cold and liquid, throbbed against my muscles as I sank deeper into my sleeping bag, trembling almost as much as the tent. A shattering crack shook the ground. I yanked my bag over my head, still half asleep, filled with terror of the night, and began praying feverishly. The mountains had sent us a storm, to tear us from our sleep and cast us wheeling into the sky, above the canopy of trees, floating. Millions upon millions of acres…
The next morning, sunshine poured down on our tent, which had miraculously held together. A slender but full-grown tree had cracked in half and fallen on the empty adjacent campsite. We had survived the night.
I’ve always known the Ocean was dangerous, in the way that it doesn’t care whether or not it kills you. But I have always felt the Mountains have some brooding resentment of our kind. Men who experience the wonder of the mountains must also risk the wrath of these ancient gods of stone.
~Lisa Shafter


Friday, October 7, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: As I Will

“I have waited on faltering feet long enough. Since they no longer falter, so it seems, may I not now spend my life as I will?”
“Few may do that with honour,” he answered.
I could write an entire essay on this conversation between Éowyn and Aragorn, but this is the exchange that struck me the most last time I read it. 
Modern culture gorges on Self. Do what makes you happy! Maintain your personal satisfaction! Concentrate on yourself! Spend your life as you will! The celebration of the individual brings with it a set of advantages, but it also tends to shove out other concepts of self, such as humility and self-sacrifice. By focusing too much on happiness, we forget about honor. 
Although self-reflection is an important part of wisdom, but Aragorn’s rebuke reminds Éowyn that humility and honor go hand in hand. It’s an important reminder for all of us. We must keep perspective, not only on how our words and actions will affect other people, but who we are as a family, as the Church, as a country, and as the world. 
~Lisa Shafter


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Fallen into Ruin

When at last the blackness passed, Sam looked up and shadows were about him; but for how many minutes or hours the world had gone dragging on he could not tell. He was still in the same place, and still his master lay beside him dead. The mountains had not crumbled nor the earth fallen into ruin.
This is one of the most poignant visions of grief I have ever read, cold as stone, close as my heart. Through the few tragedies that have affected me in my life— the death of my grandparents, my mom’s unexpected plunge into illness, my breakup— I have always been angry that the world has the audacity to keep on turning. Yet the inevitability that I curse is also a blessing. The moon waxes and wanes, the leaves turn gold and red, the sun rolls through a set arc in the sky every day: merciful signposts that, no matter how painful it may be, life goes on.
~Lisa Shafter


Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Despair and Weakness

Frodo raised his head, and then stood up. Despair had not left him, but the weakness had passed. He even smiled grimly, feeling now as clearly as a moment before he had felt the opposite, that what he had to do, he had to do, if he could, and that whether Faramir or Aragorn or Elrond or Galadriel or Gandalf or anyone else ever knew about it was beside the purpose. 
There is so much to say about this passage, I find it hard to say anything at all. How do I sum up everything I feel about this section, the way the words reach in and bring back memories of my own struggles, my own grim determination?
Suffice it to say it’s time for another one of Lisa’s Heart-Sleeve Stories.
The photo at the bottom of this entry is from a couple of years ago, showing me on a day when I was possibly the most depressed I have ever been in my entire life. I had recently discovered two of my best friends had been lying to me for months, and was in the throes of realizing that I was going to lose them both. 
Now I stare in disbelief at this photo, at my calm expression, at the peace in my eyes. I was in despair on that day, but the weakness had left me, and a sense of perspective set in. Here’s an excerpt from my diary from that three-day visit to a hostel on the coast of Montara, California:
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Mary and I have been inside, cooking supper in the kitchen, and it’s time to head over to the private room building. We step outside. The air is cold and damp, and we feel and taste the salty wind. At the top of the cliff, near the lighthouse, is a wooden bench that overlooks the ocean. We see it dimly in the glow of the lighthouse’s beacon. A sliver of moon hangs up high in the sky. Without a word, we pad toward the edge of the cliff.
Then we hear it— a great, overwhelming sound, as if a hurricane wind is tearing through a forest of redwoods. It roars toward us and I feel it coming, feel it about to hit me and I want to turn back and run, run back to the warm yellow lights of indoors where this presence, this terrifying entity, can’t reach me, but my feet won’t turn back and I’m walking toward the sound as if walking toward my death and it rushes toward me and in an instant I’m at the edge of the cliff, staring down into a sea of foam that shatters against the ragged rocks below. A wind like no other hurls itself against my body, lashing my hair in every direction. Saltwater air slams my breath back into my mouth, whipping my face with spray. And though I don’t hear a voice, I feel that entity, the entity I thought was merely the ocean, and it booms in every fiber of my being: I AM HERE. My knees feel weak. Tears well into my eyes. I choke. I crumple down onto the bench. 
And I realize, not consciously at that moment, but I realize— I still have a heart. A heart that isn’t stone, that isn’t shredded on the floor. It’s broken, it’s bleeding, it’s hurting, it’s angry, but it’s still here. It was hidden in God, hidden in His love, and He’s giving it back to me. I have a heart. I have a heart that can feel the ancient Love that whispered dry land out of the ocean, that can drink up the glory and power of the ocean wind, that can make me fall to my knees in awe and just revel in Beauty, and Truth, and Glory.
I have a heart. It’s still here. And staring out at the ocean waves, deep gray against deeper gray in the light of the crescent moon, I feel— really feel— something other than pain for the first time in days.
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Sometimes, the greatest strength is found when every reserve of power is utterly exhausted, because it opens the door for Another’s strength to take its place.
~Lisa Shafter


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Years and Years Afterward

“The brave things in the old tales and songs, Mr. Frodo: adventures, as I used to call them. I used to think that they were things the wonderful folk of the stories went out and looked for, because they wanted them…But that’s not the way of it with the tales that really mattered, or the ones that stay in the mind. Folk seem to have been just landed in them, usually— their paths were laid that way, as you put it. But I expect they had lots of chances, like us, of turning back, only they didn’t. And if they had, we shouldn’t know, because they’d have been forgotten. We hear about those as just went on— and not all to a good end, mind you; at least not to what folk inside a story and not outside it call a good end.… I wonder what sort of tale we’ve fallen into?”
      “I wonder,” said Frodo. “But I don’t know. And that’s the way of a real tale. Take any one that you’re fond of. You may know, or guess, what kind of a tale it is, happy-ending or sad-ending, but the people in it don’t know. And you don’t want them to.”
      “No sir, of course not.… All the big important plans are not for my sort. Still, I wonder if we shall ever be put into songs or tales. We’re in one, of course; but I mean: put into words, you know, told by the fireside, or read out of a great big book with red and black letters, years and years afterwards. And people will say: ‘Let’s hear about Frodo and the Ring!’ And they’ll say: ‘Yes, that’s one of my favourite stories. Frodo was very brave, wasn’t he, dad?’ ‘Yes, my boy, the famousest of the hobbits, and that’s saying a lot.’”
      “It’s saying a lot too much,” said Frodo, and he laughed, a long clear laugh from his heart. Such a sound had not been heard in those places since Sauron came to Middle-earth. To Sam suddenly it seemed as if all the stones were listening and the tall rocks leaning over them. But Frodo did not heed them; he laughed again. “Why, Sam,” he said, “to hear you somehow makes me as merry as if the story was already written. But you’ve left out one of the chief characters: Samwise the stouthearted. ‘I want to hear more about Sam, dad. Why didn’t they put in more of his talk, dad? That’s what I like, it makes me laugh. And Frodo wouldn’t have got far without Sam, would he, dad?’”
     “Now, Mr. Frodo,” said Sam, “you shouldn’t make fun. I was serious.”
     “So was I,” said Frodo, “and so I am. We’re going on a bit too fast. You and I, Sam, are still stuck in the worst places of the story, and it is all too likely that some will say at this point, ‘Shut the book now, dad; we don’t want to read any more.’”
      “Maybe,” said Sam. “But I wouldn’t be one to say that.”
Many people I’ve talked to say that they hate Book IV in The Two Towers because it seems to drag. However, even as a kid, Frodo and Sam’s journey to Mordor was my favorite part of the story. This was mostly due to my overwhelming joy at hearing about Sam again. I knew I wanted to be like Sam, wanted to be that faithful, wanted to be that hopeful even when everything looked dark.
My dad read Lord of the Rings to my three siblings and me three times over the course of our childhood. I have no idea how old I was when I first really understood this passage, but I remember the experience vividly. The six of us gathered in the living-room— Mom and us four kids squeezed onto the sagging burgundy couch, Dad in his matching armchair. He put on his black-framed reading glasses, picked up the paperback, and started reading from where he had left off last night. We all listened quietly, and even Christian, who didn’t seem capable of sitting still for a second, didn’t move.
When Dad got to this passage, he narrated it in the voices that he maintained through the trilogy, a higher English accent for Frodo and a thick Cockney for Sam. By this time I had forgotten all about the couch and my siblings crowding me or even Dad reading— I was hovering as a phantom listener beside Frodo and Sam as they huddled among the stones on the borders of Mordor. I felt their aching legs, their dry mouths, and their forgetfulness of it all as they enjoyed a conversation between friends.
“We’re in one, of course;” Sam said, “but I mean: put into words, you know, told by the fireside, or read out of a great big book with red and black letters, years and years afterwards. And people will say: ‘Let’s hear about Frodo and the Ring!’”
In that moment, a holy sense of awe overtook me. The vastness of time and history opened up like a rent in the cosmos, and all at once I was aware of the room again, and Christian crushed up on one side of me and Mom on the other, and aware of the worn paperback Dad held in his hands as he read the words that I imagined Sam had spoken eons ago in a different world. Chills crawled all through my skin as I thought to myself, His wish came true.
I of course consider the Bible to be the most influential book of my entire life, but I also admit that it was Lord of the Rings that first fired my imagination to both the breathtaking scope of history and the spiritual significance of my own story. I’ll always remember the moment the idea came home, that what I was doing right now might be important to someone centuries later. It’s a perspective I hope I never forget.
~Lisa Shafter


Saturday, October 1, 2011

Tolkien Quotes: Kindness

It had always been a notion of his that the kindness of dear Mr. Frodo was of such a high degree that it must imply a fair measure of blindness. 
This observation comes from Sam’s perspective. Frodo has just threatened Gollum, not out of cruelty, but out of plain hard fairness, and showed that he recognizes the danger that Gollum presents. Sam is surprised, and this passage shows why.
This quote made me think of a story I heard a few days ago from my friend Renee. She said that when she and her older sister Anna were kids, Anna owned a cat-themed tea set which inspired a deep envy. One day as they had a tea party with their stuffed animals, Renee stared her sister in the eyes, picked up one of the plates, and smashed it against the wall. Tears and trauma ensued, and Renee was forced to apologize and use her allowance money to buy a new plate. A few weeks later, Anna invited her sister to another tea party. Renee and her stuffed animals attended— and she deliberately shattered another plate. And so it went. Anna hosted an event, Renee destroyed a piece of the set, and Anna still invited her the next time. 
Once she got past the plate-smashing stage, Renee said she thought that Anna had been naïve. “Later, though,” she said, “I realized that she had just kept on forgiving me.”
The cynic might argue, “This story illustrates that kindness is blind. She let her sister hurt her over and over for no reason!” But this story struck me as a beautiful example of a girl who decided that a friendship with her sister was more important than a matching tea set. She believed that the cost was worth the kindness.
Although everyone spends a lot of time trying to teach kids to be “nice,” kindness is often a rather ignored virtue. Most think, as Sam thinks, that realism and ruthlessness go hand in hand. In the passage from Lord of the Rings, Tolkien shows that kindness can be firm and fair, not naïve. However, kindness often means going into a difficult situation with eyes clear, leaving yourself open for a shot but willing to take it.
Anna got married a few years back, and for her wedding gift, Renee bought her a shiny new tea set. “No act of kindness, however small, is ever wasted.”
~Lisa Shafter