Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Six: Rivendell


The transition from travel to home is often jarring, a change in metaphorical (and sometimes literal) temperature so abrupt that I often find myself curled up on my bed unable to function for the first few days back in St. Charles. Hence, I’m grateful when I get a chance to taste home just before I actually reach it, to find the first homely house from my journey in the wild. This happened on my last trip to Florida, when my best friend drove to meet me in Nashville on the way home. Without those days of hanging out, I would have been dysfunctional for a week or more upon my return, but thanks to her, it was a smooth transition. I’m hoping the same to be true of this trip, only this time, that segue is courtesy of the Magruder family.
In a much earlier blog, I mentioned that I meet lots of friends on my trips, but never family. Now, I’m back with the extended family I’ve known all my life, and for the first time since I left home, I feel myself letting down the careful boundaries that I put up when I travel. I’m not a guarded person, generally, but I have a part of my mind that constantly tries to maintain my balance, to make sure my feet are firmly planted on the ground. How does that worldview conflict with my own, and what can I learn from it? How will this particular small action affect the way other people understand who I am? How exactly does our theology differ? What paradigm do I take for granted that they don’t? What do they mean by “the meaning of life,” and how is it similar and different to my own definition? That part of my mind gets tired, and usually takes a break when I’m alone. However, there are few greater comforts than, after a long absence, coming into the presence of people who actually Know you— your past, your personality, your parents, your perspective. For the first time in eight weeks, I can completely let down my guard.
Last night, the whole family— Uncle Kerry and Aunt Candace, Rachel and her husband Stephen, Hannah, and Susanna— sat around the dinner table and asked me questions about my travels. I gave lengthy answers between bites of hot dogs and baked beans and salad, knowing that they actually wanted to hear “the long version” of my trip. I’m already rehearsing the answer I’ll give back home to most people who ask how my trip was: “Eye-opening.” If people want to know more, they’ll ask. Otherwise, the single-word answer will satisfy them. 
Right now, I’m sitting in a spacious living room with huge windows looking out into a forest (an actual forest, with trees— deciduous trees— and grass, and the air’s a bit humid— oh! did I mention the grass?). I’m curled up on an overstuffed chair, rocking gently with my feet bare against the finely-textured tile, wearing shorts and a clean borrowed t-shirt while the rest of my clothes are in the wash. I spent the whole day catching up on my blogs, working hard but at a leisurely pace. The Magruders have given me the chance to gather my thoughts, to consolidate all the themes that have run through my life in the past eight weeks. I have one more full day tomorrow, and then on Thursday, refreshed with a Rivendell along the way, I’m heading back to the Shire.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent today: $0
Deficit: $133.31

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Five: Oklahoma City

May 30th

I spent a fairly sleepless night on the bus, even though the middle-aged woman sitting next to me was quiet and pleasant, with well-tamed hair, fake eyelashes, and a t-shirt stretched tight over her bosom that read “Look But Don’t Touch” (in the morning, she read a King James Bible borrowed from another passenger, which I thought was an interesting dichotomy). No, my reason for sleeplessness were long layers at regular intervals, most notably in Amarillo at 4:30 to 6:00am. Finally, I drifted off into a shallow but adequate sleep, and when I woke up and looked out the window to get my bearings, my heart sang for joy. I saw a field, and in that field was grass. It was green. It looked like it was healthy. And here’s the kicker: it was growing entirely on its own!
Only then did I realize that a mere week and a half in the southwest had left me starved for a landscape that looked like home. I was euphoric at the sight of grass, and even more as the scenery developed: winding streams, groves of deciduous trees, wide stretches of cultivated land that actually didn’t look like they were about to die. The sky was full of fluffy gray clouds, offering the possibility of rain, and the land gently rose and fell, without a hint of spectacular cliffs or unexpected canyons. I was getting back in range of home, and that made me immeasurably happy.
Who can resist taking photos with a paint-splattered bison?
My Uncle Kerry and Cousin Rachel picked me up from the Greyhound station, and I fairly melted into the seat, feeling the comfort of lifelong friends wrap around me like a blanket— the Magruders aren’t actually related to me (except for a distant ancestor in the 1800s), but they’ve been some of the most supportive family I’ve ever had. Uncle Kerry first checked to be sure I wasn’t too tired to do some sightseeing, and I assured him I’d crash later. We were off to explore Oklahoma City.
We spent most of our time in Bricktown, a former ghetto that transformed into a charming historic district with a clear canal running through the middle. We walked along the water, and I exclaimed with delight when I saw two mallards and their ten fluffy little ducklings (I also exclaimed with delight every time I saw grass, and once when I took a breath and realized that air was humid). Uncle Kerry took us to Abuelo’s Mexican Restaurant for lunch, a building with three-story ceilings, waiters who dressed in all-black uniforms, and a delightful southwestern motif. The chicken and avocado enchiladas didn’t stand a chance against my appetite, and neither did the coconut-flavored frozen yogurt at the Peachwave we visited afterward. 
Given a few options, I decided upon the Cowboy and Western Heritage Museum. Uncle Kerry used his membership pass to get us in for free, and then we set off to make sense of the massive winding halls. He directed us to the art gallery, and for at least an hour we explored it, savoring each piece of western-inspired art, both old and new. 
My favorite painting was a one-by-two foot canvas of the Grand Canyon, created by a modern artist. A common compliment for a realistic painting is “It looks just like a photograph!”, but I have never liked that one— it’s like saying, “This homemade cake tastes just like it came out of a box!” This painting looked nothing like a photograph, even though it was unquestionably realistic. A photo can never capture the essence of the Grand Canyon, but this painting did. Arrested by the transcendence of the image, which put me back on the South Rim staring out at the majesty of stone and time, I stared at the painting and felt my eyes brimming with tears. I had been there. I had actually been there, and perhaps for the first time, that fact came home to me.
The museum contained a lot more than art: one of the sections was the set of an old west town, complete with a school, barber shop/doctor’s office, church, blacksmith, telegraph office, and a few more buildings fully furnished with 1800s supplies. The town was lit up as if at night, and recordings of noises and conversations drifted through the air. The uneven floorboards even creaked under our feet as we walked.
The final exhibit we saw were five triptych panels in a massive conference room. When Uncle Kerry and Rachel talked about “the murals,” I imagined a typical wall covered in images. Instead, I stared up at the triptychs whose side panels were 10 by 16 feet, and whose center panels were 16 feet square. Each of the murals was a landscape painting of a southwestern state, huge and bold and stunning in a twofold way: first for the image itself, and then for the transcendent painting style. I wandered the room with my mouth wide open, seeing an image from each of the states I had visited: Utah, Wyoming, New Mexico, and Arizona (I appreciated the one for California as well, even though I didn’t visit there on this trip). Here, near the end of my trip, I was presented with massive postcards to remind me of where I had been and what I had seen. Though my journey has a couple days left, I’ve already accomplished the main thing I set out to do: see the west.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent: $0
Deficit: $143.31

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Four: Albuquerque

May 29th
My overall impression of New Mexico was that I have never paid enough attention to it. For some reason, in my head it was a desolate landscape of nothingness with a couple of cacti and cattle skulls. I’m not sure how this image ever came into my head, because New Mexico’s landscape often reminded me of home: craggy limestone cliffs pockmarked with caves, and rolling plain with clumps of trees to signal the presence of water. Of course, there was sand instead of grass, and aridness instead of humidity, but all in all it bore an inner life that I would like to explore more someday.

We rolled into Albuquerque’s historic district around one in the afternoon. The hot sun beat down on the adobe buildings, giving us the cue to dress like smart tourists: I pulled my hat down, slathered sunblock on my face, and wore a sarong over my shirt to cover my shoulders, which were lightly sunburned from half an hour of sunlight the day before. The next few hours we wandered around, sometimes together, sometimes apart. I ate ice cream (I counted it the three dollars as “splurge money” still left from a gift given to me in Utah), called my sister, and hung out in the town square marveling that there were deciduous trees and grass. The buildings were eclectic and old-looking in the most well-kept way possible, color-coordinated into a sweeping Southwest theme. I enjoyed details that kept showing up in the motif, such as bouquets of dry chili peppers hanging from doorways, and wooden and clay working in harmony to create the flat-roofed buildings. I talked to an artist who sat outside his store, bringing a prickly-pear cactus to life with acrylic on canvas. He was from Michigan, he said, but moved to New Mexico because it was the best place he’d found. “It’s the people,” he said. “The people here are great. I’ve never found anywhere like it.”
Musicians were also stationed throughout the area, and I listened to a group of Navajo flute players, who delighted me both with traditional songs and classical (such as “Time to Say Goodbye,” which made me cry). Then I found an accordionist sitting on the gazebo, talking to a group of about fifty nuns and postulants clustered around him on the stage. Then he began to play Amazing Grace, and all the sisters joined in. I promptly sat down on a nearby park bench and joined in the singing; I had missed church that morning, so it was a welcome blessing. Next they sang “When the Saints Go Marching In” and danced around the gazebo, hands held to the sky, some waving their wooden crosses in the air, some clapping with better rhythm than I have ever heard from a Catholic (or Lutheran or Presbyterian, for that matter). It was good to be reminded that nuns can have fun, too.
Around five, we drove to Nob Hill, a section of Route 66 that stays alive through tourism. We walked around and talked about politics and education and the war in Iraq and socialism and propaganda and a host of other subjects, weaving in and out of the southwest murals, kitschy shops, and restaurants converted from old gas stations and auto-repair centers. We paused to explore a dead motel, still garnished with metal and tile decorations, its doors boarded up with copper numbers hanging sadly on the wood. 
I bought Amanda supper one last time to thank her for her time, her company, her generosity, and the use of her RV, food, driving ability, and National Parks pass. Without her, I wouldn’t have been able to visit the Grand Canyon on this trip. We sat down at Orchid Thai Cuisine and ordered different kinds of curry, and when we had finished feasting on our respective dinners (mine included bamboo shoots, noodles and bell peppers in coconut milk with green curry), we headed back to the RV.
After much misdirection, nearly running out of gas, and making a few wrong turns, we ended up at the Greyhound station, which looked as deserted as a southern Arizona landscape. So it was that I was stressed when I gave Amanda one last hug and rushed out the door, only to find the station alive and well. I got my ticket, I boarded the bus, and I was off to Oklahoma City, leaving the Grand Canyon part of my Epic Trip behind me in the sand.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent: $20.22 (supper)
Deficit: $153.31

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Three, Part Two: Trees of Stone


May 28th

Amanda and I were off to Albuquerque: her to a farm to WWOOF, and me to some form of transit that would take me to Oklahoma City to see my friends. It was only 10:30am, but already Amanda had been driving for almost five hours when we found the entrance to our detour along the way: the Petrified National Forest. We had driven through a barren desert landscape of scrub and open sky and swirling dust, caught glimpses of a small herd of antelope with triplet fawns, and seen a strip of classic Route 66 and its collection of dead and dying tourist attractions. But at last we were here, in a landscape much like the one we had seen on the rest of the trip. Amanda used her National Parks pass to get us in, and then we drove along a winding road between gray hills that much resembled the manmade sand heaps that line the rural highways in Missouri and Illinois. We drove several miles, and just when Amanda said, “Y’know, I’m just not that impressed with this…” we saw a turn-off, and we saw the fallen trees.
I had seen petrified wood before, but I had never imagined how amazing it would be to stand next to a fallen log with a diameter as tall as my torso: a log that appeared to be wood but was shelled in stone and filled with crystal, a log as old as the dinosaurs, a log that came from a tree that had once grown on the edge of a floodplain in a swampy forest on Pangea. 
The park was filled with several scenic places as well. We jumped out of the RV to take pictures of the Blue Mesa, an undulating plain marked with salt flats and alien rock formations; Painted Desert, a series of stone dunes in unbelievable shades of red and pink; and the Teepees, a collection of conical hills striped with different-colored sediment. We spent a couple of hours wandering around the park before we hit the road, both of us enjoying the ride, but ready to get on to our next destination, and the place where we would part ways.
~Lisa Shafter
Budget notes: That night, when we got in to an RV park just inside New Mexico, I had to make a decision. I had an offer for a rideshare from Albuquerque to Oklahoma City, but it would place me arriving there on Tuesday night rather than Monday morning, allowing me only one full day with my friends the Magruders, rather than two and a half full days. I had a choice: completely blow my budget and see them more, or stick to my budget and not spend much time with my friends. I have no regrets about my final decision. At the end of the trip, I’ll run the complete stats to show how close to $10 a day I got.
Money spent on 5/28: $134.75 (Greyhound ticket, supper [Amanda wouldn’t let me pay any more gas money, so I started taking her out to eat])
Deficit: $143.09

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Three: Sunrise

May 28th


Not three hours after I fell asleep, I heard someone banging on the door and realized it was a cop throwing us out of the parking lot… and then I woke up. The trailer was dark, the wind blowing ominously outside. Jack was silent, which meant no one was nearby, so I rolled over and tried to get back to sleep. I had little luck until about 4:15… and we got up at 4:30 to see another daily phenomenon that we might not see again for a long time: sunrise on the Canyons.
Amanda has an amazing wake-up time: from fast asleep in bed to driving with perfect coherency took her less than two minutes. Groggy and glad I wasn’t driving, I sat in the passenger’s seat and zoned out. Fortunately, because of where we’d parked, the entrance was only a couple miles away. We ended up driving to a lookout called Grandview Point, which we only had to share with a handful of visitors. Amanda walked Jack while I found a slab to sit on, bundled up against the nighttime chill, and watch the flaxen sky for the reappearance of the sun. 
As I sat, I realized this was my last good view of the Canyon. Amanda was ready to hit the road again, and quite frankly, so was I: there were friends to see before I got home, and my time out west was winding down. The Canyon will always be there, and perhaps when I return my mind will be stronger, rebuilt from the sense of scale that has shattered my mind several times since I’ve been out west. In the meantime, I gazed out at the horizon, and felt the nippy breeze on my face, and waited for the sun.
The indigo nighttime retreated back into the canyons as the light grew stronger, and I watched it with eyesight that sometimes blurred with tiredness. But at last, gold overtook the blue and the sun leaped into the sky with a flood of vivid light. The light shook off the chill of the night and the wind felt warmer, as if to say to me, “Godspeed. Don’t worry, you’ll be back.”
And so I said goodbye to the Grand Canyon, and within the hour we had hit the road, with music blasting through the speakers, but barely to be heard over the sound and the rattle of the wind, one last parting shot from Arizona’s wonder of the world.
~Lisa Shafter

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Two, Part Two: Party

May 27th

Normally, after a full afternoon of hiking and a full evening of wrangling shuttles to a sunset view, it would be time to crash in the RV. However, couchsurfing interfered in the best way possible: through the site, Amanda had gotten in touch with a geologist who worked at the canyon who offered her RV camping advice (we would sleep in a parking lot that night, on the geologist’s advice, and hope the police didn’t hassle us). The geologist invited Amanda and I to a “dress like a tourist” party she was throwing that night in Tusayan, a town just a couple miles south of the GCNP entrance. We parked in the lot where we’d spend the night. Then, dressed as tourists (AKA, exactly like we’d been dressing the past few days), we walked through lamplit darkness the two and a half blocks to a house tucked away behind an RV park. We heard guitar music, laughter, and conversation, and we both hesitated. Then Amanda boldly stepped into the circle of light, introduced us, and we were swept into the party without any further questions.
It turns out, the geologist was throwing the party for a bunch of people who worked or volunteered in the canyon: her abode housed several of the guides, and several more came to visit, decked out in crusher hats, Hawaiian shirts, reflective vests, fanny packs, shorts with pulled-up socks, and a host of other tourist clothes. Never have I met a group of such open and socially adept people: I guess that’s what comes of being friendly to people all day long for your job. I ate two pieces of cold pizza, drank water instead of the booze, chatted with several different guides and volunteers, hung out a bit by the bonfire, got hit on by a drunk 60-something-year-old, and watched as some of the guests trooped to the backyard to hang up and smash a homemade piñata in the shape of the National Parks Department emblem.
As usual, the experience was an insight into a fascinating sub-culture. One of the guides talked about how jaded she gets to the canyon’s beauty, while another insisted that he’d never grow tired of looking at it. They talked about different kinds of volunteers: the ones who last, the ones who don’t, and all referred to river guides as if they were the top of the hierarchy (“Why is the Grand Canyon so big?” one of them riddled. “Because it has to fit the river guides’ heads”). They came from all over America, united in a fascination with the canyon. They asked me about the places I’d been, both on this trip and in the past, and some people lit up when I mentioned different places. “What did you think of Washington?” one redheaded guide asked me, his eyes wide as if begging me to answer with love for his home state. Fortunately, I was able to show all the enthusiasm he was eager to hear, and we talked about the wonders of Washington, me with the appreciation of a tourist, him with the memory of home.
My favorite conversations, however, were the exchanges as the guides shared stupid things that tourists have said to them and people they knew. Here’s a sampling of my favorites:
(Asked at 6:00pm) “So what kind of half-day hikes can we do today?”
“Where’s the highway that goes down to the bottom of the Grand Canyon?”
“At what elevation do the deer turn to elk?”
TOURIST: So, where’s the mountain?
GUIDE: Uh… do you mean the Canyon?
TOURIST: Yeah, whatever.
(And, my personal favorite…)
(Looking across the Canyon from the South Rim) “Is that Canada?”
Amanda and I stayed at the party until well past midnight, then departed the firelight and crowd to head back to the trailer, exhausted but grinning.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent on 5/27: $0
Deficit: $18.34

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-Two: Kaibab Trail


May 27th

Amanda and I got off to an intentional late start that Friday: we both were worn out from the day before, not only from sheer physical activity, but from the overwhelming feel of the canyons, the sensory overload of something so much bigger and older than ourselves. She smoked a bowl of weed, I charged my electronics, Jack brought his tennis balls to me so I could throw them down the narrow RV hallway for him to chase, and then we were off again on the hour-long commute to the canyons.
After arriving at the park, we ate some trail mix sandwiches before hopping the free shuttle to our destination: the Kaibab Trail, which winds a strenuous path all the way down to the river, a good 16 or so miles. Amanda and I, however, understanding our limitations, decided to opt for the rest area a mile and a half down. Loaded up with water (I had two bottles and she had a gallon for us to share) and trail mix, we picked our way between a construction site and began the zigzagging descent into the Canyon itself. 
Again, the weather was perfect: stark sunlight, a bracing wind, and a vivid sky broken only by a few clouds on the horizon. The trail was covered in pebbles and pinkish-colored dust, a combination that exercised our reflexes and adrenal systems— there are few things more exciting than your feet slipping out from under you next to a hundred-foot cliff. Still, it was easy to walk downhill (carefully avoiding the mule droppings), and immediately we were treated to a vista of the canyons, framed by ragged cliffs on either sides. Occasionally I looked up at the canyon walls that soon soared above us, but I easily got vertigo, and had to watch my footing.
We descended about a mile and a half worth of trail, an elevation drop of 1140 feet. The path hugged the canyon wall, shaded only occasionally by a tough little tree or two. We reached a flat spot at the 1.5-mile mark, scattered with trees living and dead, slabs of boulders, and tourists hoarding the shady spots for picnics. Amanda and I hung out in the sun and talked to a woman who lived in New Zealand (but originally came from Germany) who was on a year-long trip around the world. She was 45 years old, and had quit a teaching job for her trip. “There is no perfect time to go on a trip like this,” she said, munching on a Clif bar. “You just have to go.”
The hike back up was, as expected, grueling. We chugged nearly the entire gallon, and I began to feel a little shaky, and remedied this with almonds and the shade of one of the cliff faces. The sun is a slow killer, even in the spring: I can’t imagine visiting the canyon in its summer zenith. 
We reached the trailhead at a reasonable hour, and both agreed it was time to get some real food. We ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, then strolled toward the shuttle in search of another sunset.
This time, we decided to head toward Hopi Point, the most popular sunset spot. We ended up going on to Mohave Point instead, because the entire bus emptied when we made the Hopi Point stop. Mohave is a limestone outcropping with a few metal railings between the tourists and the canyon edge, and I sat next to one of these with a handful of quiet tourists, and watched the sun make its daily journey to meet the horizon.
The sunset was much like the one before: how I could describe the difference in the tapestry of light between one place in the canyons and another, I don’t know. We watched, and we enjoyed, and we watched condors circling in the evening-lit sky and took pictures of the way the sunbeams played in the canyons, last vestiges of playfulness before the menacing vivacity of the night. The most stunning moment of the evening, however, was just after the sunset. Stratus clouds glowed with molten gold, and below them, the thin ribbon of the Colorado River lit up in the same color. I stared at the reflections of the sun, above and beneath. “And God said, ‘Let there be a vault between the waters, to separate water from water…’”
The shuttle bus back to the visitor’s center was so crowded, the tourists were crammed together like pickles in a jar. I held onto the smooth metal overhead railing and listened to the accents and foreign languages of the people around me, smelled their sweat, which should have stunk, but instead smelled wholesome, like a remnant of sunlight. Outside, the air grew dark, and the shuttle windows became glossy black, and my feet began to throb. Another day at the canyons, another set of memories that my mind couldn’t comprehend. Once again, we drove out of the park in the darkness, but this time, we weren’t headed back to Koa. But that’s a story for my next blog.
~Lisa Shafter

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty-One: The Grand Canyons

 May 26th
I woke up that day at six ‘o clock with the sun in my eyes and the joy of anticipation in my heart. However, it was a couple hours before we ate breakfast and the road, and then it took well over an hour to reach Grand Canyon National Park, then look around the visitors center as Amanda walked Jack. So it was that by the time we strode up the tan-stone pathway that promised to take us to the South Rim, I was nearly bursting with anticipation. A warm morning sun shown down on us (it was about 10:00), with brushstrokes of clouds— which didn’t seem unusual until I realize that I hadn’t seen clouds since the glimpse of sunrise in New Mexico six days earlier. A bright wind whipped around us as we walked, trailing the path of a few dozen other canyon-seekers from all over the world. It was a perfect day and my heart was ready to see something I knew would blow my mind.
At last, the topmost ridge of the Canyon peered over my view of the horizon. It was blue, I remember, the clearest twilight blue I had ever seen that can only be caused by seeing something at a huge distance. I quickened my pace, and in rapid degrees, an alien world swept into my vision.
They call it the Grand Canyon, but this always gave me the idea that one huge rift (with a couple dozen impressive offshoots) cutting through the earth like a river and its tributaries. This was the case with Zion Canyon, and of course it was breathtaking. The Grand Canyon, however, was nothing like this. It laughed at all my conventions of what defined a “canyon” and showed off its true nature.
I saw an impossibly wide, impossibly sprawling, impossibly massive maze of inverse mountains. The earth fell away to an unfathomable distance, reached a plateau, and then dove again in chasms reaching to the floor of the river that helped form this wonder. As far as the eye could see (which was about 90 miles), the canyons wound through the rock, forcing it apart to reveal its stripes and colors, now soaring up, now plowing down, now gathering in pinnacles, now stretching out stony roots that gathered around the buttes and mesas and peaks in patterns that looked as if they were carved by some giant’s hand. Never had I seen such a mind-blowing combination of colors: at once the deepest evening blue and the rustiest stone red, each color distinct yet in perfect harmony with the others, each layer of sediment a slightly different hue, speckled with juniper and soft morning shadows. Limestone in the foreground contrasted with sandstone in the distance, shaded blue with atmosphere. Each formation was an impressionistic showcase of lines, each jagged stroke a story of unimaginable violence: erupting volcanos, ocean storms, unrelenting winds, the terrifying march of time, and finally one tenacious river. 
I wish I had a vivid memory of the exact moment when the panorama of millions of years of geology spread its stony arms for me to see. All I remember, though, is that my frail human eyes tried for a whole second to take it in. Then my mind simply broke, and I wept.
From the beginning, I knew that photos would never be able to capture the Grand Canyon, not even a little bit. Still, I persisted in taking several of that first lookout, Mather Point, hoping that I could look back on them and, someday, be able to fathom what I had seen.
Over the course of the day, I hiked about ten miles of the South Rim Trail, a paved walkway that meanders along the edge of the Canyon, offering rugged Field & Stream photo opportunities from the comfort of an easy strolling path. Amanda and I hiked the first bit together, then split off to meet up later, and I walked the last eight miles alone, with only the occasional bunches of tourists at lookout points to interrupt my exploration of the rock with more intricacy and facets than a diamond.
Soon, with the help of some information signs, I became acquainted with the names that people had given the formations to try to cut them down to size for human comprehension. My two favorites were the Isis Temple and the Bright Angel Canyon.
The first was a white pinnacle that swept downward in a rough pyramid shape, resting on vast roots laid out in a pattern of five around it, so symmetrical that it seemed impossible that nature alone could have carved it— if anything has ever been “hewn from the living stone,” as fantasy novels often claim, this was it. I never got tired of seeing it, from every angle I could as I hiked, watching the way the sun climbed over it and cast shadows in different nooks at each hour, until the light fell straight down upon it, lighting it up in the subtlest shades of white and rust I had ever seen.
I think I liked Bright Angel Canyon because it actually fulfilled my image of what a “canyon” was: it burrowed its way through the rock, an impressive depth and size all by itself, but dwarfed into a sub-category by the inverse mountain range of which it was the snowy peak. Dark gray with volcanic rock, streaked with crevices rent by water, it was my ever-present companion as I walked, daring me to explore its depths if ever I came back. 
The sun continued to press against the world in intense light, and a stiff wind picked up, rushing through the scrub pines with the sound of waves crashing on a shore. The wind seemed jealous that water gets all the credit for the Canyons— it nearly blew my hat off several times, and once it ceased for an instant when I was leaning into it, almost making me fall off a cliff. It all seemed fitting: how could a milky sun and a gentle breeze exist in a place filled with such harsh beauty?
When Amanda and I met back up at the RV, we decided to go driving in search of a good sunset point. Thus began a meandering drive along the eastern part of the South Rim, stopping at lookouts, taking yet more pictures, and finally ending up at Desert View Point. We missed the watchtower’s open hours by five minutes, but were content to sit on the stony ledges by the canyons’ edge and watch the huge golden orb sinking through the thin clouds toward the horizon.
Sunsets are hard enough to describe— how can a writer capture the intricate play of light and color, the deepening of golden red sun rays that penetrate the landscape, fierce as fire and delicate as a kiss? Over the Canyons, the sunlight took on countless layers of beauty, sliding down across the landscape in a never-changing canvass of exquisite shadow and strokes of subtle color. The lines of geology faded and consolidated as the sun sank, showing off the shapes of the cliffs, soft-focus in the haze of distance, silhouette after jagged silhouette. A deep blue shadow overtook the bottoms of the canyons, seeping upward in the form of a chill wind. The ghosts of darkness and the hush of the night stirred down in the riffs, eager for the sun to depart and give them permission to rise up from their silent graves. 
At last, the sun gave up and melted into the horizon, leaving behind a yellow-orange glow that somehow, when it touched the clouds, turned them pink. It didn’t matter that the sky was still light, caught up with the nostalgia of the last few seconds— an intense cobalt darkness settled over the entire Canyon, making my human instincts sharp and nervous at the overwhelming presence that I felt permeating every ridge and nook of the ancient stone. We hurried back to the RV, cranked up the music, and headed back to the campsite. At the Grand Canyon, night had begun its reign.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent on 5/26: $25.02 (gas for the RV)
Deficit: $28.34
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Sunday, May 29, 2011

Epic Trip Out West, Day Fifty: RV Couchsurfing

May 25th, Wednesday

Jumping into a stranger’s ramshackle RV doesn’t sound like the wisest idea in the world, but as usual, there are exceptions. When Amanda H. pulled up her 34-foot vehicle, the Noble Beast, into the Greyhound station where I was trying to ignore the homeless man catcalling at me, I hopped right in without hesitation. 29, curly-haired, and laid-back with a sweet girl-next-door smile, Amanda welcomed me into her RV. I plopped down my backpack (nearly bursting with snacks, thanks to Dennis and Sheila!), met Jack, her golden-eyed pit bull, then settled down in the passenger seat as Amanda cranked the crackly stereo system, and with a tremendous vroom of the engine, we were off on the road to the Grand Canyon.
Add Amanda to the growing list of awesome people that I’ve met on couchsurfing.com. I had posted a request for a travel buddy or rideshare partner to the Canyon, and she wrote me back right away. I checked out her profile, scanned her references, found them all positive, and wrote her back. She’s a woman who got sick of her job as a real estate agent, sold almost everything she had, bought an RV, took to the road, and never looked back. Our schedules lined up perfectly, and I found myself on the path to a national park I was beginning to doubt I’d see on this trip.
Even without my $10 a day budget, I never could have afforded staying at the Grand Canyon, since I don’t have any camping gear, but I knew I wanted to go. Now, thanks to couchsurfing, I not only had a comfy place to sleep, but someone to hike and talk with while experiencing one of the Seven Natural Wonders of the World.
The first night, we parked in a Koa Kampground about an hour outside the Canyon. Munching on trail mix sandwiches (trail mix sandwiched between whole wheat bread and peanut butter, soon to be a staple of my diet), we had a long conversation about life, religion, spirituality, healing, worldview, marijuana, and government involvement. As we talked, I tried to imagine how staying in a hotel could possibly beat the experience I was having right now. It couldn’t. As the Bible says, “Better is an RV couch with love than a hotel room by yourself.” …At least, I think that’s in Proverbs somewhere. 
My couchsurfing has caused a stir among different people in my life, prompting worries from all over the place. That’s understandable— when I first heard about couchsurfing, I was horrified. “Staying in a stranger’s house?” I asked the woman who had told me about it. “Isn’t that really dangerous?” She tried to explain to me that there were ways to be safe, but I was skeptical until I checked out the site for myself and understood the system of profiles and references. Thus far, I only couchrequest from people who have all positive references from a variety of sources.
Of course, there’s always a risk. Could Amanda have faked her 13 positive reviews? Conceivably, but that would have taken a mind-blowing amount of work (creating 13 fake profiles that managed to get several references each). Could she have acted kindly to 13 people in order to build up enough good references that she could sucker me into her RV and then murder me? Well, yes… I guess that’s possible. It seems much less likely, though, than most things in life. Driving a car is a risk worlds more dangerous than careful couchsurfing, and yet people do it every day. Nothing risked, nothing gained… but I still don’t view couchsurfing as much of a risk, and the gain has been tremendous.
People fearful of other people have a reason to be so, but if you fear everyone, you shut out everyone as well. If it weren’t for couchsurfing, I wouldn’t be going to see a wonder of the world for virtually no money. That Wednesday night, I curled up on the RV couch and fell asleep knowing that tomorrow, I’d be looking out at the Grand Canyon.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent on 5/25: $1 (postcards)
Deficit: $13.32

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Epic Trip Out West, Day Forty-Nine: Pictures




IMPORTANT NOTE: Tomorrow, I’m leaving early in the day for Flagstaff, and I don’t know where or when I’ll have internet again. I’m not planning on cracking open my laptop when I’m at the Grand Canyon, so I’ll have a lot of catching up to do when I reach Oklahoma, which will be some indeterminate time between now and June 1st. In the meantime, hang in there. I’ll have some killer blog entries for you in a few days!
Now, back to our regularly-scheduled program…
Dennis decided that I needed one final dose of the Sonoran Desert today, and I quite agreed, so I grabbed my new camera and hopped in the car to accompany him for a scouting mission to the Saguaro National Forest. The sun was warm and golden as we drove along, and soon we reached a spot to hop out and hike through a valley between two huge rock outcroppings. Tonight, I think I’ll show the story in pictures and get on to my packing. Enjoy my rookie photographs, and Dennis’s professional ones. See you after the Grand Canyon!

~Lisa Shafter

Money spent today: $0
Deficit: $22.32



Epic Trip Out West, Day Forty-Eight, Continued: Tucson and Cacti




Although some people I’ve met insist that a city is a city is a city, I find that each metropolis has a distinctive feel. To me, St. Louis is a metal clutter of history and river-grunge, Seattle is a glassy shell over a grimy underbelly, San Francisco is a chaos of grit and style and international culture, Nashville is a dusty urban site with a flair of midwest, and Miami is a façade of perfect colors and housekept beaches. Although Tucson shared threads of similarity with each of these (skyscrapers, businessmen and homeless people, funky red urban art), it is the most uneasy city I’ve ever visited, the most tenacious, the most uncomfortable in its surroundings, even though its inhabitants don’t seem to notice. Put simply, Tucson is in the middle of the desert, and its every attempt to emulate the cities of elsewhere ends with the desert as the victor.

The Desert, like the dryness in the air, isn’t immediately apparent, until you feel your breath with clarity on your lips, drawing in and wafting out like an old air conditioning unit. Every green thing that isn’t astroturf seems on the verge of giving up and dying. I even found a dead cactus in a planter by a parking garage, shriveled up and brown. Every palm tree I saw seemed on its last root. At one point, I felt a distinct change in the air, and wondered what it might be until I saw a sprinkler system fighting nature a block away. Half of the carefully-watered grass was still dead. A couple buildings rise up high and proud, coated in dust, but most of them have the good sense to stay close to the ground, conserving their energy lest they be overcome with the dryness and sucked back into the earth.
The streets were quiet as I walked, but that was understandable since it was a Monday morning. I parked myself on a concrete bench beneath a desert tree in Presidio Park and listened to a busker play a mournful melody on his Native American flute. Black pigeons and slender-beaked crows picked through the dappled sun filtering through the trees and around saguaro and prickly-pear. Already the Desert mentality has seeped into my mind, transforming gravel to grass, and I abruptly realized as I wound through the park that I was keeping to the path to avoid stepping on the pebbles!
I found the hallmark sites of the city, thanks to Dennis’s advice and a map he gave me: The Fox Theatre, Congress Hotel, Chicago Music Store (I got to play a sleek black mandolin for a while), St. Augustine Cathedral, etc. I found a tourist district where every wall of the concrete complex was painted a different children’s-blocks color, hung out on a stretch of rare semi-healthy grass behind the library, trekked into the residential district in search of “world-famous doughnuts” only to find the shop closed and, of course, sat and talked with the homeless people I met.
After about five hours in the sun and heat and stinging dusty air (I’m still itching from the airborne needles, fine as hairs, that dug into my skin from a gust of wind), I called my cousins to see if they’d pick me up. Dennis met me over by the library, but my day wasn’t over. “Since you like saguaros,” he said, “I thought we’d take a detour.”
The detour was to Saguaro National Park, and we arrived via a winding asphalt road surrounded first by houses, then houses with the occasional cactus, then wide open stretches of land marked with the massive plants. We drove over the top of one of the jagged “little mountains”— and my breath was taken away.
Before us, spread out on either side of the curvy road, I saw a vast forest. A desert forest. A forest without a tree in sight. The mountains dipped and rose dramatically, jagged and volcanic and rusty yellow in the evening light, covered with a jumbled mosaic of brush and stone and pebbles and blasted bits of shale. Poking up from the beautiful wreckage of rock were saguaros— thousands and thousands and thousands of them. They reared their blossoming heads up to thirty feet or more, and raised their massive arms to the heavens, green and subtly striped with vertical shadow. The whole valley was laid out before us, curving down into a bowl before rising up in warm shades of blue in the far distance. The sky, without a cloud, was blasted out by the sun, a blank tapestry against the mind-blowing detail of the landscape.
I’m an incredibly articulate person, especially at such moments, so of course I said, in a voice full of awe at God’s creation, “Holy mackerel!” At that second, it was the best I could do.

~Lisa Shafter

Monday, May 23, 2011

Epic Trip Out West, Day Forty-Eight: Homeless

Right now, I don’t have time to tell you, dear readers, about everything that I saw today, everything I experienced as I trekked around Tucson, chugging water and eating dino fruit snacks and soaking up the distinctly non-St.-Louis, non-west-coast feel of this unique town. Neither do I have time to give Saguaro National Monument its due attention. So I’ll stick with the experiences that had the most impact on me today: meeting homeless people.
I gave one a granola bar, another some peanuts, and a third one of my water bottles. One man, his earth-brown skin crinkled with age, looked deep into my eyes with a warm and bloodshot gaze, and told me with an earnest smile (even though I’m pretty sure I didn’t say “sorry”), “Don’t say ‘I’m sorry.’ People who say ‘I’m sorry’ are sorry people. Say, ‘I apologize for being wrong.’ Remember that!” he said with a grin missing a couple of teeth. “Listen to the old guys— they know what they’re talking about.”
While I waited for the white walking symbol at a light, a man approached me, wearing a brown jacket and holding a cardboard sign with neatly-written words in marker: “Homeless Need Food Please Help.” Before he could even open his mouth, I blurted out, “I’m sorry, I don’t have any money to spare.” 
“Oh, I don’t need your money,” he said, getting the signal that I wouldn’t give him anything. “I just want your smile!”
I promptly removed my sunglasses and flashed him the biggest grin I could manage. He grinned back and extended his hand, which was clean, with only a little dirt under the fingernails. “I’m Tony. I’m from California.”
“I’m Lisa, and I’m from St. Louis.” The light changed green, and I wished him good luck. Not a block away in Santa Cruz River Park, I veered off-course to avoid a man leaned against a sentinel of decorative stone, screaming and swearing with the kind of foaming-at-the-mouth wrath that gave me the shivers. Not a half-block from him, however, four other homeless people, two men and two women, perched on the wall around the park, lounging like tumbleweeds on a still summer day. One of them called out to me, “Look at those cammo pants! You got style, girl!” and another said, “Come sit with us! We’re okay, we don’t mean no harm.” 
So I stopped, and I pulled off my sunglasses and I sat down on the white-hot sidewalk and asked them where they were from and what they were up to. The seeming leader of the group introduced himself as Daniel, a man in his fifties with wise gray eyes, hair starting to grow white, a tendency to repeat himself, and a determined pace to his Tennessee accent that kept him going even when other people interjected. A late middle-aged woman, her face lined and re-lined with worry and laughter and sunburn, rocked gently on her heels as she listened to the conversation. The other man and woman were a couple, the man at least twenty-five years older than his wife (“Age don’t matter,” he said, “age is just a number. We got love, and that’s what matters”). His wife, young and blonde and smoking a hand-rolled cigarette, showed me a picture of their two-month old who had been taken away from them, named Augustine. He was adorable, and I told her so, and she beamed with more pride and love than I’ve seen in any other mother.
Daniel and his friend has served in the war, and now they found peace on the streets, “where everything’s controlled by the Big Man,” Daniel said, referring to God. “He’s in charge, I’m not in charge, he is. I served eighteen years, seven months, three days in the military. I love my country. Don’t you believe what the people say about us. We don’t mean no harm. We’re a family. There’s idiots, of course…”
“There’re always idiots, everywhere you go,” I said.
All four of them laughed. “Thank you!” Daniel said. “I like you. We’re friends.” He held out his clenched hand, and we fist-bumped.
I talked with them on the frying sidewalk for nearly half an hour, then bid them goodbye, politely refused to give them money, and exchanged “God bless!” with them. They’re people who have made a choice, people who are lost, people who have a skewed perspective of the world in which they live. But they’re children of God, and it was easier than ever to remember that today.
On my way back across the street, Tony called out with a huge grin, “Look, there’s that pretty lady!” And it occurred to me that if I really was living on the streets, I would have just made five new friends.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent today: $49.05 (Greyhound ticket from Tucson to Flagstaff— I’m heading out on Wednesday)
Deficit: $32.32

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Epic Trip Out West, Day Forty-Seven: Cactus Garden

When Dennis and Sheila announced that our tourist activity of the day was visiting the DeGrazia Gallery in the Sun, I imagined a sleek museum space with white walls that do their best not to distract from the artwork. Dennis grabbed a camera, Sheila handed me her camera, Mindy picked up Maddison, and we were out the door. And when we pulled up to the parking lot and I glimpsed adobe buildings straight out of The Three Amigos surrounded by a rickety fence bleached by sun and wind, with an overwhelming garden of cacti behind it, I began to realize that it wasn’t going to be anything like I thought. The thirty-foot saguaro cactus at the far edge of the lot caught my attention, and I wandered over to it, pulling up my borrowed sunglasses so I could trace its succulent green ridges with unshaded eyes.
The gallery was in fact a set of low adobe buildings, plastered with straw and furnished with old cast-iron ranges and fireplaces that reminded me of swallows’ nests. Desert gardens embraced the land around the houses, in which natural and manmade objects grew side by side: shovel heads perched among yucca, cacti growing out of a rusty trombone, lengths of saguaro ribs strung from a crossbeam as wind chimes. Lean-tos and teepees of rickety desert wood grew in the garden, too, along with trellises decorated with metal flowers and delicate curtains made of unraveled burlap. In the desert, every commodity is precious; every throwaway item has a new use, and every object can become art.
Ettore “Ted” DeGrazia was an artist who lived in the adobe hovel and set up his studio, living and painting here from the mid 1940s until his death in 1982, and the largest of the buildings was dedicated to the actual art gallery. The other houses were open, cool, and airy, smelling of clay and as much pleasant dampness as you’ll ever find in a desert. Large black-and-white photos on the wall gave visitors a glimpse into DeGrazia’s life of paint-making and homemaking in this adobe construction among a garden of cacti. In one of the buildings, we met a musician, wiry, swarthy, sweet-smiling and appearing to be in his 50s, selling CDs. He offered to sing for us. Flipping to a track of one of his albums, he belted out a song in Spanish; the only word I could understand was “amor,” but I loved his sonorous voice and the way he shuffled his fingers as he sang, as if sifting invisible flour. Dennis, who knew him from a photo shoot, informed me that the passionate singer was 74 years old.
Next we visited the chapel, an adobe construction brought to life with art, with a strip of open roof. Dennis and Sheila had gotten married here, beneath a cross of ocotillo branches that crowned the steeple. DeGrazia had adorned the walls with exuberant paintings of people who seemed to reflect the landscape in line, color, texture, and overall feel, as well as birds that seemed to be peacocks or phoenixes or both. Crucifixes, flowers, rosaries and other religious tokens were piled up in the corners, and two small wings for meditation and prayer on either side of the entryway carried a hushed tone of reverence about them.
After wandering the gardens and staring at the myriad forms of cacti, we entered the gallery proper and milled through the rooms of bold, line-impressionistic artwork. Two paintings stand out in my mind: one, a pastel mix of flurrying lines, sleek and speedy, showing a stampede of horses descended from the Spanish stallions. The lines ceased to be lines and came to life, so that I could hear the whinny and feel the dust in my throat. The second was a depiction of an Indian upon his blue horse, his back bent, his red cloak hugged close about his shoulders, with a sharp wind blowing at his back, whipping forward his hair and the horse’s mane. The colors were bold, the lines simple, but I felt caught up in the moment, absorbed as only a true artist’s work can cause.
Despite the beauty of the artwork, I was eager to return to the garden and wind my way through its twisting trails. I marveled at round growths of cactus that was pastel purple, at tall slender yucca plants, at hesitant flowers peeping their heads from the top of cacti, and at the lizards with ringed tails, like lemurs, that hopped and dashed across the dusty pathways.
My mind, once again, has a hard time catching up. This milieu is vastly different from anything I’ve ever seen, from the first shock of a stereotypical cactus to the hand-grown wonder of the desert garden. I would never want to live here, but today I allowed the desert to show its charm and its intricate beauty, and I allowed myself to fall in love.
~Lisa Shafter
Money spent today: $8 (craisin trail mix, whole wheat rolls, pepperoni, two jars of peanut butter, dried bananas and Twizzlers)
Leeway so far: $6.73
Note: photographs courtesy of Dennis Brownfield